My duty...wasted and scorned

"Now ye shall know that the chosen priest & apostle of infinite space is the prince-priest the Beast; and in his woman called the Scarlet Woman is all power given. They shall gather my children into their fold: they shall bring the glory of the stars into the hearts of men."

 

I am cursed by my one and only true Master, the Magus pAmphAge, forever, until I completely submit to do the Will I have sworn to do.  I sold my soul to a demon, took upon her powers, and I now I squander them in hedonistic waste and squalor.  I have turned my back on Magick and on Love, and so shall my weapons turn against me, and all my spells shall backfire or turn to naught.  And as a Babalon, RA-HOOR-KHUIT shall cast me out from men: as a shrinking and despised harlot I shall crawl through dusk wet streets, and die cold and an-hungered.

So Mote It Be.

Izabael

Comments

[whoa nelly]

That's harsh. but then again demons aren't toys. If you give yourself over to them, it is irrevocable and you will be bound by all the rules of the demon. demonology is a two-edged sword.

[Par]

Only 3 things can happen that I see. 1) Izabael shall submit to the Will of her Magus. Or 2) She will be slowly destroyed by the lethal poison of Goetic Curses (hail Adonai!!) 3) The girl who became Izabael could try and purge herself of everything Izabael and Goetic, but my understanding is once you imprint yourself with a demon it's permanent so I think this one is unlikely. She would also never be able to have anything to do with the Goetia and most likely even High Magick ever again. She would of course lose all powers conferred through the demon and magick, and most likely her ego and self-esteem would be irrevocably shattered in the process--in other words, she would end up being destroyed anyway.

And to be fair to "pAmphAge": As magicians we are sworn to to the very highest God Names to punish and curse disobedient spirits. If he didn't, he himself would face Karmic consequences. In fact a magician in this case has to do very little except invoke the power of Adonai, YHVH, Solomon, etc. He simply channels the power into the curses. He is merely a vessel of the Divine.

[nion]

I don't know what you did, exactly, but mayhaps whatever this duty is - there may be a way to set things right by it. It is with gentle retractions that sometimes even our harshest blunders can sometimes be forgiven. Sometimes I am glad that my own imprint does not come from a demon, exactly, that doesn't mean however, my world is uncomplicated by that set of responsibilities. I am forever on alert that I do not follow precisely the same patterns, as my little archetype. Any demons or devils I've worked with though, usually have been those who were close to this individual very long ago.

At times, I yearn for normalcy and still at others, I must do all within my power to maintain a tone of normalcy. To me, you are still a good e-friend Izabael, cursed, or not. Try not to despair and remember the world still loves you. I have a feeling that peace will return to your troubled waters as you atone. For now, all you must do, is concentrate on righting whatever may be wrong. You are a good person, I know you will pull through. Peace be with you.

[nytek]

In support of that which Crowley pointed out somewhere at some time ... all my biggest blunders and catastrophes seem to happen when I am farthest away from my true will. I guess your example can be seen as further support in that light.